Am I special?

Am I special?

Don’t we all want to be?

It’s not just adolescents who struggle with insecurities or doubts on self-worth. Atleast I was an extremely confident teenager; the doubts began much later in life. Whether in our personal or professional lives, we want to be indispensable, irreplaceable and unforgettable.

But are we being fair? On ourselves and the rest of the world? Isn’t it asking for a little too much? We aren’t perfect. Nobody is or can be. The way we look at ourselves, the place we want to be at, is not necessarily what others can see.

You might think you are the best person for a role at work. This is because you want it, so you imagine you being the best possible option for it. You think and imagine of all the ways you can prove yourself, of all the great things you will achieve.

You might love somebody. You want to spend time with this person. You imagine of all the ways you can make them happy.

There is a huge difference between wanting something and being wanted back. You might think you are the best candidate for that Ops manager’s role but you are not. That person is the love of your life, but you aren’t theirs.

Haven’t we all gone through this sometime or the other? Tormented by feelings of rejection and heartbreak we go down the path of doubting our worth. Feeling nothing else would be right for us in the world. But, the fact is, the world is too big and our lives too complex. Losing on something doesn’t mean losing the meaning of our lives.

You might suck at dancing but you might be the best ice skater around. You might not be right for that person because they are probably not right for you.

I know. I know. It’s easy to say.

It hurts. 

A lot. 

So let it. 

Because it will make you who you are supposed to become.

Someone special.