Chains

Bound in these shackles

Shackles of the past

Memories, moments, dreams

And of the love lost.

Fear, uncertainty, pain

Suffocated, gasping for air.

This is all I can feel now

Who said life was fair.

My hands and feet go numb

When I want to run away and hide

I can’t stand up and walk

And I am left with no pride

It’s all empty and dark

As far as I can see

I didn't know that the day would come

When all I would want to be is free

Free from this fear

Free from this pain

Please open your eyes and see

There’s nothing left to gain

Fear of breaking you

Pain of hurting you

Wish I could make this easier

Wish I knew how to

Wish we could hold hands

And be each other’s solace

Wish we could support each other

And not have all this hate

But the days of wishing are gone

As are the ones with laughter

It’s time to stop tearing each other

And to look forward to what comes after

I know that it seems impossible

I know we don’t know how

But we have to learn

And the time is now

Time to start afresh

Time to relearn to smile and play

Don’t you think it’s time to fly?

And leave behind this life so gray?

Let’s stop fighting what’s inevitable

Let’s stop fumbling in the dark

Let’s start thinking for ourselves

Life doesn't have to be so stark

Guilt, regret, pain and hate.

Tears, screams and fear.

I know it’s still not too late

If only we could hear.

Hear what life is telling us

Telling us to take what it brings

Let’s shake away these chains

And fly by our own wings.

Time to walk away

Have you ever had that someone, you care for and respect but somehow, all that he/she can give you is tears and pain? It can be your partner, spouse, family member, friend or even a colleague. Let's call this person "YN". I will tell you what YN stands for a little later. And, let's refer to him/her as "it".

I know!! I am sorry! Its very mean. But, its simpler than typing him/her each time and also, if you know what I am talking about, you would also refer to it as "It"

So, YN is a fairly important person in your life. You love it, respect it, value it's opinions and believe it has your best interests at heart. May be it does. But, all it can do is put you down. Tell you what you aren't good at. Ridicule you. Criticize everything you do. Kill your confidence.  Or even worse, tell you that your confidence is a big lie. You don't deserve it. You suck.

Sounds like a douchebag, doesn't it? But, here is the problem. You can't hate it. May be it throws you into a rage, breaks your heart, messes you up. Only for a short while. When the pain lessens a bit, you try and rationalize YN's actions. Try and cook up stories in your head, trying to make yourself believe that it is YOU who has misunderstood or maybe even overreacted. So, you blame yourself and decide to be better the next time.

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